Starting Your Day Right.

Well today I'm praising God!! No reason nothing special has happened to me today. I'm just praising Him because its Him!! Why not praise Him? Today when I was listening to Joyce Meyers, She was talking about praying and spending time with God every morning or at least once a day. Well today i spent time with God and prayed. I feel so much better :) She also said that it makes the devil mad when you spend time with God and pray. I love making the devil mad!! lol You also need to declare it to the heavens!! After you do that your days will get easier and easier!!! Man i really need that!! Why should I put up with all this crap the devil gives me. I dont need to take it anymore! We also need to be selfless, just help someone, give them a compliment, a smile, something stop worry about yourself. Get rid of the attitude of "what about me?, what about me?, what about me?," Joyce also said that angels rejoice in sound when we pray. She also said that we each have about 20 angels assigned to us, she said that some of our angels are board because we don't pray lol. Joyce Meyers is an awesome teacher, she isnt a pastor, she is a teacher. Remember to start your day right.

Love and Prayers
John :)

Update

Hey. Good afternoon. I haven't made an blog post for a while. I've had lots to blog about but no time. Well its been a while since I've looked at anything! I'm very proud of that....There has been bumps along the way. But with Gods grace and love I will get through it. :) Also since my last blog post, Grandma and Grandpa have moved into the Manner. That also makes me the homemaker now :) Which I love. I make the suppers and lunches, and I clean, which means i cant be at the store as often as I would like too. But you have to make sacrifices. I have also started going back to bible study, I'm definitely learning a lot from that. We really pray everyday that our house will sell soon!! I really can't wait to move :) then I won't have as much floor or counter space to clean lol. Well that is all I have for now. Hope you all have a great weekend and a great week next week :).

Love and Blessings
John

Very Proud!!

Well today my mom got the accountability email and in 10 days it went from 20 or more times to 2 I am very proud of myself and so is my mom :) It hasnt been easy but I have made it 10 days and that is a big acomplishment for me!! thats all I wanted to say today :)

With Love and Care

John

Was it Worth it?

Well yesterday I realized that I need to re-evaluate my Facebook friends list. Some people dont know how to be quiet or to keep things to themselves. I'm just thinking is honesty the best policy? I was honest but I ost my job beause I was honest. By the way its been 5 days!! im proud of myself for that. and for as whoever told Elaine about this. YOU DON'T KNOW THE WHOLE STORY!!! So whatch what you say!!! Thank you!!! I wrote that post to ask for help and for you not to hold it against me but that is exactly what you did!!! and that makes you not my friend and you are not worthy of my friendship!!
With Pain
and Someone Searching.

John

My Story. Pt. 3

Well I am pretty proud of myself it has been 2 days with out going on any websites. now I know that doesn't sound like a long time but that is for someone who looked at them every day. I need to celebrate the small victories!. It hasn't been easy but nothing is easy. I have had cravings and temptations to go on the websites but when that happens I go and listen to the radio or watch some TV. I separate myself from the computer and the computer area.

Like I said there wont be a lot to write but that is what is on my mind today.

Love and Care

John

My Story. Pt. 2

I am writing this as a journal. today I have been craving to go on a site. But I need to show resistance. I need to show I have selfcontrol. Its just like a smoker when they quit cold turkey they have cravings to light anouther one and it is very hard but that doesn't mean that you cant quit. I will quit!! I will! It wont be easy but it will be done and I will finally be free from my addiction. But I still need to stay away from the things that can help me access the websites. If you think of an alcoholic, if you just quit drink and you know you have an alcoholic past, you wouldnt go into a bar because that is just asking for trouble. I wish it could be easier but it will get easier as I go on.
I know its not alot of reading today but thats whats happening today so far.

Love and Care

John

My Story.

Today when I was watching Joyce Myers, she was talking about her horrific childhood. When Joyce was a little girl she was raped by her father time after time. She said it was atleast 200 times. I thought that was horific, if you dont feel somewhat like that then there is something wrong with you. The reason that she told this story was so other people could learn from her experience and to trust God through the whole thing that he is there. She said one of the biggest black eyes you can give Satan is to giv your problem to God and ask him to turn your pain into gain and your mess into a message I thought that was profound! One of my problems is porn sites and I am here to tell you its not easy to get out of. It is a vicious cycle but with Gods love and grace and friends support I will quit. Now I am not tellng you this to show that I am a terrible person but I am telling you this to show you that there is a God and because of him I will quit this addiction. Its a groose addiction and it is consuming and yet when I reach for help no one is there. Why if you need help I will be there to help now when I need help the right thing would be to help me. But instead I get shunned and no one talks to me and I feel like an outcast. The right thing would be to accept me and help me and love me for me not for what I have done. Now I am taking a leap of faith by telling all of you this, now please dont use this against me.

Someone reaching out for help

John.