Today when I was watching Joyce Myers, she was talking about her horrific childhood. When Joyce was a little girl she was raped by her father time after time. She said it was atleast 200 times. I thought that was horific, if you dont feel somewhat like that then there is something wrong with you. The reason that she told this story was so other people could learn from her experience and to trust God through the whole thing that he is there. She said one of the biggest black eyes you can give Satan is to giv your problem to God and ask him to turn your pain into gain and your mess into a message I thought that was profound! One of my problems is porn sites and I am here to tell you its not easy to get out of. It is a vicious cycle but with Gods love and grace and friends support I will quit. Now I am not tellng you this to show that I am a terrible person but I am telling you this to show you that there is a God and because of him I will quit this addiction. Its a groose addiction and it is consuming and yet when I reach for help no one is there. Why if you need help I will be there to help now when I need help the right thing would be to help me. But instead I get shunned and no one talks to me and I feel like an outcast. The right thing would be to accept me and help me and love me for me not for what I have done. Now I am taking a leap of faith by telling all of you this, now please dont use this against me.
Someone reaching out for help
John.
John you know that we have always been there for you to try and help you, but ultimatley you have to decide. Sounds like you are ready to be open and honest. Very proud of you and will keep praying for you. Hoping you have found someone to meet with regularly to be accountable too. Keep praying and being in God's word daily. Find a devotion book to help you walk through this. Have you read EVery Man's battle? It also comes with a study guide. Ask your pastor about it or Duncan. Praying for you my dear.
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